This drawing has a long story behind it. I will try to shorten it a bit. It's basically about my childhood and youth but in many ways it can symbolize that feeling some go through in life when you feel alone, unloved and don't know where you truly belong. That anxious feeling that leaves a dark hole inside you (at least that's what it did to me for many years). It's like it can't be filled till you find that meaning with your life, what you are suppose to do and suppose to be, and who you are suppose to be with.
I actually were at another state of my life when I began this drawing, though it's only 1,5 years ago since I started it. So much has happened since then. I really feel it's a part of the past and when I look at the girl in the drawing I see myself but in a different way. This makes it a very personal and important drawing to me.
The drawing is made after a photo of myself. I took a picture of myself early 2006, when I was just about to move from my current home. Everything was a mess and it brought up that insecure feeling. But I guess you need to fly, fall and loose ground to finally be where you belong.
It's made with graphite pencils, 2B, 3B and 6B on the dress.
Bigger Version
(30x40cm | 12x16”)